Things I Miss

Everything that I miss in my life come from the lack of employment; high on the list, of course is a paycheck and then the list goes on and on.

I miss my children above all else. If I was working I would see them more often. I could travel and spend week ends together. Two of my kids, I haven't seen in over a year. That is so sad. We talk a lot, but it isn't the same as hugging them. I miss my grandchildren. I miss them so much. But on to a lighter note.

I miss getting my hair done by a professional. I am still trying to grow out from a bad haircut. On a whim, I dashed into the hair cut joint at Walmart to clean up the back of my hair. Big mistake, he chopped a chunk out of the side of my hair. He spent the next hour trying to clean it up and finally mentioned how cool it would be to have a haircut with one side shorter than the other. I said, not for me, then he continued to cut. He had no choice but to announce that he made a mistake. Oh and no charge for the haircut. I smiled and said thank you. What could I do? So now I am two months on the grow out and it gets worse everyday.

I miss getting manicures and pedicures every two weeks. I have had artificial nails for more years than I care to remember, but now I am growing my own and need to keep them up myself. They split and crack, and I file. All the while trying to keep them out of my mouth. Yes, I am a habitual nail biter, which is why I kept artificial nails. Do they look nice, hell no, but they will do. After all, I don't go anywhere or see anyone so why does it matter. Years ago, a doctor told me to get pedicures because my toe nails were beginning to show signs of age. Don't you love it when a doctor tells you, your toes are aging fast than the rest of you. So I did and I loved it. It felt so good to sit and have someone else do your toe nails. They always looked nice and I loved the little designs. Plus I never had to try and contort my body into a position to prune the nail. Well, that too has gone into one of the things I miss. I do my own toe nails. I nearly dislocate my hip trying to get my foot in a position so I can reach the nail.

I miss going out to eat, even fast food. Of course my waistline likes the no fast food, but I do miss stopping by the In n Out Burger. I can't even remember the last time I ate a hamburger. I stay away and just eat at home. And that is something else the I miss, cooking. Living alone, I really don't cook real meals. I only cook the quick and easy meals for one. And groceries are carefully purchased, nothing is bought on a a whim. You know when you get that hunger for a roast beef dinner with mashed potatoes and gravy. No, it isn't in the budget.

I miss taking my cocker spaniel to the groomer and getting him bathed, groomed, nails cut, teeth brushed, and ears cleaned. He had over grown so much that a couple weeks ago my daughter and I shaved him. He looks ok, but not as adorable as he looks when he comes back from the groomer. I really miss that. And cleaning his ears, ug, that is a chore.

I miss getting up in the morning and hurrying to get ready for work. I miss putting on make-up. I miss the stress of the day to day routine of work. I miss traveling. I miss my credit cards. I miss driving in traffic. I miss my house being a mess because I don't have time to keep up with the dust. I miss laundry piling up because there is not enough hours in the day to get it done. I really miss buying new clothes. Now that I have lost 30 pounds, I could really use some new clothes.

I am sure there is more but that is enough for now. Maybe I will write next about the things I don't miss like the mail and the monthly reminders.