Tough place to be

It is a very tough place to be at this point in my life. I am nearly 60, homeless, jobless, broke, and alone. Kind of sucks to be me; oh but wait, at least I've got my health.

So while counting my blessings; I have 4 fabulous children, who have managed to find awesome spouses to share their lives and have produced some of the most outstanding children. I would have to say that I have left my mark during my time one earth.

God has blessed me; truly blessed me. I may be lonely, I may not have a job, I may not have a home of my own, but He has blessed me to continue on and watch my grandchildren grow up. No, this is not where I want to be, but from some strange reason, it is where I am. I am sure there is a lesson being learned. I just have to meditate,open my heart, and listen to the message. Lord knows I have the time.

I worry about my eldest; my son is a mess. Some his doing, some not, but either way it is a path he chose to follow and now must face the music. He will be fine. There isn't much I can do to help him. I encourage him to stay positive. I let him know that I love him. I let him know that life is full of surprises, and there will be something good just around the corner. He has turned his life upside down for the woman he loves. He is angry and not dealing very well with the loneliness. But he won't leave her. He will wait until she is back in his arms again.

I don't worry about my girls. They each have strong husbands and life is unfolding with ups and downs, but nothing they cannot handle. Each is strong in faith and strong in their family values.

I wish we could all live in the same state, same city, hey even within walking distance; so we could all be together for Sunday dinner. It is a dream that helps me to fall asleep at night.

So I am not where I want to be in my life; but I am getting by each and everyday. I have my family that I cherish. I have friends that help me to keep an open mind and positive outlook. So come on, now, get me out of here, working, and maybe someday I might even open my heart to a new man in my life. I might be just about ready to start dating again. Almost, just about ready to think about dating again.